Awaken me

At the beginning of the day I was tired and frustrated, a sad mess. 

I was hurting because I wanted to feel God, to feel something like what I felt before. Before, I had passion and now the fire had died down. Well, what am I left with when there's nothing to be felt? Could life go on when all I felt was pain? And I couldn't understand why, when I knew and witnessed that he could most certainly set me free from anything, why I was still acting like I couldn't be free of this sadness. Then I was reminded that indeed, there were so many points in my life where He had been there for me and there were so many things to be grateful for. Life didn't come to a standstill, I was pressing on through a storm and He was right there leading the way.
"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."              -Deuteronomy 31:8 
Through these things, I am only getting stronger. It is not a time where God has forgotten me. He is doing His work in me. I must continue to seek His face. He will never leave me. My God, I thank you for the amazing ways you work. I praise you for the things You are teaching me. You make me strong. I thank you that you hear my prayers and that you have restored my life. Thank you for the many things you have shown me over time, that continue to speak to me. Here is one of the things I found in the notes of things He had spoken to me through other people... this song:

" 'What does love look like?' is the question I’ve been pondering

'What does love look like?'

'What does love look like?' is the question I’ve been asking of You

I once believed that love was romance, just a chance

I even thought that love was for the lucky and the beautiful

I once believed that love was a momentary bliss

But love is more than this

All You ever wanted was my attention

All You ever wanted was love from me

All You ever wanted was my affections, to sit here at Your feet

Then tell me

'What does love look like?' is the question I’ve been pondering

'What does love look like?'

Then I sat down, a little frustrated and confused

If all of life comes down to love

Then love has to be more than sentiment

More than selfishness and selfish gain

And then I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me

I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me

He was looking at me, looking at Him, staring through me

I could not escape those beautiful eyes

And I began to weep and weep

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He had arms wide open, a heart exposed

Arms wide open; He was bleeding, bleeding

Love’s definition, love’s definition was looking at me

Looking at Him, hanging on a tree

I began to weep and weep and weep and weep

This is how I know what love is, this is how I know what love is

And as I sat there weeping, crying

Those beautiful eyes, full of desire and love

He said to me:

'You shall love Me, You shall love Me

You shall love Me, You shall love Me'

With arms wide open, a heart exposed

With arms wide open, bleeding, sometimes bleeding

If anybody’s looking for love in all the wrong places

If you’ve been searching for love, come to Me, come to Me

Take up your cross, deny yourself

Forget your father’s house and run, run with Me

You were made for abandonment, wholeheartedness

You were made for someone greater, someone bigger, so follow Me

And You’ll come alive when you learn to die"

I know what love is, because You showed me. And I will love You, my Jesus.