My hope

Jesus, I'm calling out, I'm reaching out cause I am in need of your love...

Right now, I'm goin through some stuff, but it's nothing that the Lord can't fix. I love how He always takes me in His arms and things always work out in the end. Here's the song I wrote today:

I have had such a great year and this next video about sums it up...

That is my lovely family!

Awaken me

At the beginning of the day I was tired and frustrated, a sad mess. 

I was hurting because I wanted to feel God, to feel something like what I felt before. Before, I had passion and now the fire had died down. Well, what am I left with when there's nothing to be felt? Could life go on when all I felt was pain? And I couldn't understand why, when I knew and witnessed that he could most certainly set me free from anything, why I was still acting like I couldn't be free of this sadness. Then I was reminded that indeed, there were so many points in my life where He had been there for me and there were so many things to be grateful for. Life didn't come to a standstill, I was pressing on through a storm and He was right there leading the way.
"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."              -Deuteronomy 31:8 
Through these things, I am only getting stronger. It is not a time where God has forgotten me. He is doing His work in me. I must continue to seek His face. He will never leave me. My God, I thank you for the amazing ways you work. I praise you for the things You are teaching me. You make me strong. I thank you that you hear my prayers and that you have restored my life. Thank you for the many things you have shown me over time, that continue to speak to me. Here is one of the things I found in the notes of things He had spoken to me through other people... this song:

" 'What does love look like?' is the question I’ve been pondering

'What does love look like?'

'What does love look like?' is the question I’ve been asking of You

I once believed that love was romance, just a chance

I even thought that love was for the lucky and the beautiful

I once believed that love was a momentary bliss

But love is more than this

All You ever wanted was my attention

All You ever wanted was love from me

All You ever wanted was my affections, to sit here at Your feet

Then tell me

'What does love look like?' is the question I’ve been pondering

'What does love look like?'

Then I sat down, a little frustrated and confused

If all of life comes down to love

Then love has to be more than sentiment

More than selfishness and selfish gain

And then I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me

I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me

He was looking at me, looking at Him, staring through me

I could not escape those beautiful eyes

And I began to weep and weep

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He had arms wide open, a heart exposed

Arms wide open; He was bleeding, bleeding

Love’s definition, love’s definition was looking at me

Looking at Him, hanging on a tree

I began to weep and weep and weep and weep

This is how I know what love is, this is how I know what love is

And as I sat there weeping, crying

Those beautiful eyes, full of desire and love

He said to me:

'You shall love Me, You shall love Me

You shall love Me, You shall love Me'

With arms wide open, a heart exposed

With arms wide open, bleeding, sometimes bleeding

If anybody’s looking for love in all the wrong places

If you’ve been searching for love, come to Me, come to Me

Take up your cross, deny yourself

Forget your father’s house and run, run with Me

You were made for abandonment, wholeheartedness

You were made for someone greater, someone bigger, so follow Me

And You’ll come alive when you learn to die"

I know what love is, because You showed me. And I will love You, my Jesus.

My heart, it's bound tight...

Help me to break loose from these tethers,

The ones that I let hold me tightly together

Watch this heart float, light and free

As I drift, gently sunward where we may be 

United, as one

No longer apart

No longer separated 

By what I put before You

Because nothing is above You

So why should I cling to these earthly things

You gave Your all

the biggest sacrifice

Now, I owe You my all

I give You my life

Break open these ropes 

That try to suffocate me

I need You to come 

Won't you rescue me?

Standing before the king...

I need You to understand
I'm in more need of You than I've ever been
Daddy, I need You and Your loving hand
To still my heart, wash this life anew
And make things right again

I long to leap and sing
But my body is not rejoicing
Inside I am a desert run dry
How could I stand before you with such a solemn face
It puzzles me, not knowing why I can't be
Spinning, carefree

I cry because I love You
I cry because I need You
I cry because I fear I've lost it all
I can't feel You here
And I just want it all back
To be back to where I was
A place where Your fire burned, and where it burned away
In a passionate display

Let this night be different
No more tears will run down this face
There can be no sorrow when You're here in this place
Remembering You're here with me always
My heart dances with joy

May I enter into Your courts with jubilant song
Cause You're inviting me in
You, my King
Are the only one who knows me and chose to love me
Why is it that You are always thinking of me?
How is it that You continue to love me?
Merciful Father,
Gracious King;
I bow before You,
Asking that you bring comfort to me
Bring fire to this heart, once more,
A heart that longs to praise You, always

Many years ago...

There once was a young girl, she was living in a world where she couldn't seem to escape hatred and corruption. But she longed to keep her childhood innocence. She remembered days when she would run in fields after her friend and dream that she was part of a world that didn't have a care about what was going to happen tomorrow. It was only here and now as she laid on the moss covered stone, staring up at the sky. She quickly fell asleep and dreamed a special dream. She opened her eyes to a dark sky and ash fell to the ground. She realized that she was seeing the world in complete despair. Suddenly, two people dashed out in front of her and she fell over. Looking in the puddle before her, she saw a hand reaching out. As she grabbed the hand she began to feel an overwhelming peace. Suddenly, it didn't matter what was happening around her. She lifted her eyes to see the face of a man who she could only describe as the "face of love". He told her that she must return to the world and deliver the message that there was hope. Soon, she was woken up to reality and her face beamed. How could she have not seen what she did now? It was as if her dreams of a world with peace were now possible and everything made sense. She had this longing for a better place that was founded in her longing to have the world restored to it's original place. Now, she wanted to shout from the mountaintop that there was hope in a Savior that would return. She came down from the mountain and began to tell the people that she saw of the good news of how her life had been turned around. There was now, no doubt, a life worth living, full of hope, joy and peace.